Blah...bitch bitch.. bunch of crap

I've hit my all time low. Me being sick the last few days  (and still) didn't help me from staying strong. So right now step on me, blow me off, treat me like shit I wouldn't know the difference, keep doing what makes you happy and lead me to think that I'm part of that. If I am that's great if not then why stick around. I know I'm not the best person or the best friend to be around. But I'm also tired of always having to wait. Tired of being used when other people are ready but i guess its just as much my fault since i like to feel needed. its still bull crap.