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Obituary for Mr. Russell Vernon Thiel

Of Caro, age 88, died Tuesday, November 22, 2011 at Covenant Harrison in Saginaw. Cremation has taken place. The memorial service will take place, 1:00 pm, Wednesday, November 30, 2011, at the Martin Funeral Home in Vassar. Pastor David Burkett will officiate. Family will receive friends at the Martin Funeral Home on Wednesday, from 12:00 noon until time of service at 1:00 pm. Memorial donations may be considered to the American Cancer Society. Envelopes are available at the funeral home.

Russell was born September 24, 1923, in Flint, Michigan, the son of Anthony and Grace (Ives) Thiel. Russell and Betty Jane Morris were united in marriage June 5, 1948. Russell proudly served his country in the United States Navy, during World War II.

He worked for Buick for 33 years, before retiring in 1980. He was a member of the UAW #599. Russell enjoyed spending time with his family, traveling and camping. He was active in a variety of sports, including boxing, football and golf.

Left to cherish his memory is his wife of 63 years, Betty Jane; four children, Pam and husband, Russ Radke, Debbie and husband, Ray Wruble, Jill and husband, John Carr and Len and wife, Rae Thiel; 15 grandchildren; many great grandchildren and great-great grandchildren.

He was preceded in death by his parents, grandson, Robert Hascall; granddaughter, Andrea Wruble; great grandson, Thomas Watson; and brother, Duane Thiel.

I guess I'm slacking,,,,

Once again I'm falling behind in my blogs. It is starting to bug me cause really its the only way for me to get my thoughts out. Not to mention its a good way to keep track of things that have happen. Not to mention sometimes i have a lot to say depending on whats going on.

We finally moved it was a fast move to. We're on the other side of the park. It's a lot nicer over here more kids for Andrew and Elizabeth to play with. Not to mention I love the house its nice we all have our own rooms and two bathrooms. To top it all off it only needs little things done to it little drywall work Ernie says it isn't a big deal at all. Of course thank you to Roberta and Terry for helping us move it really does mean a lot to us.

Ernie finally got out of retail. (Thank god!!!) He's now doing the same thing as me, today he's finishing his classes I'm very happy for him he got a 96% on his med test. From what I understand he likes it so far. I hope that its something he'll like doing its a good field to be in. But we're off to a good start with him liking it right now so that's a plus.

So not to long ago I picked up a kitten. Oh course Ernie named it. Which it's name is fitting Snicker's but it does look like a snickers bar lol. Karma likes her the kittens always grabbing her nose. It's pretty funny.

Right now I'm getting some mad hours at work. Which mainly has to do with something I did. I got a girl fired for smoking weed on the clock. That's one thing that pisses me off, What people do on their own time is them but there's no reason to being doing that at work our job isn't stressful by any means. She should have seen it coming I told her the first day I worked with her if she ever told me she was smoking weed on the clock I would file a report on her. So what does the dumb-ass do tells me she took to hits. But of course it's every ones fault but her own. When well people grown up?? So for now everyone at work likes me cause I did something none of them had the balls to and that's call and report which if i have to i'll do it again. I'm not having the people I take care of every night get hurt because someone can't wait 8hours to get home to be stupid.

Well that's pretty much it for right now I think. I promise I'll try not to wait 2 months before i post again. lol

Sorry it's been so long.....

Okay so it's been about 3 months since I posted anything at all. That's longer then I really wanted to wait. I need to get in the habit of doing my posts I got to much build up that I need to get out. Which of course my blog is my way of getting my thoughts out of my head wither their good or bad. By blog is just my escape plus a good way to be able to reflect on things later on.

Let's see where to start..... I guess old business first is a good way right??

Okay old business:

So the crazy bitch of a neighbor is still doing what she can to try to start crap. For some reason she feels the need to mow our yard. (which screws it up cause she does a really bad job and waits for weeks at a time). It's just really getting old. Her kids keep throwing their football at the house, or run around in our front yard. Which with this last time I told the oldest boy "If you hit my house with that football or anything else for that matter again from this point on I well call the cops and I well file a police report make sure your mother knows this." So far I must have gotten thru cause they haven't hit the house.

Then of course she's got a new boyfriend he's arabic. I caught the asshole looking in our windows a few times. Which is just flat out creepy. You look over and theirs this guy looking in your windows yuck! So of course we went thru the whole house and put blinds up. We're hoping that soon the park well have a three bedroom (Not holding our breath on it tho) so we can get away from her. Since it's pretty much going to be the only answer the park wont do anything about her kids hitting our house or messing with out lot even tho in the lease it says that they well take care of it if it can't be settled between the two parties. But our next step is getting a hold of the park managers boss and talking to them cause they keep giving us the run around whenever we go in to talk to them.

Now the Newer News:

I started a new job. I got hired in July 6th. I went back to a part of the field of work that I was studying in high school. I'm working third shift at an adult foster care home. I really enjoy working there, the other midnight and I get along really well. I look at the clients as my family. I'm there enough it really was bound to happen right? lol I think I'm adjusting to the hours pretty well. Some days are a little harder then others but still they aren't bad.

Ernie's been having issues at work. His store manager got canned due to her own stupidity. But of course it's everyone else fault but her own. So now there's this other manager from another store that's coming in on her power trip, and in her process of tring to fix the store she's turning it into a bigger mess. So of course Ernie's looking for a different job. I can't say that i blame him with all the crap that's going on in that store. I hope he finds something that he actually enjoys. It's stressful having a job you dont enjoy.

Well it happen Ernie let me get a dog. August 12th we picked up Karma, she's a beautiful 3 year old purebred rottweiler. From the day we picked her up she's been amazing with us. She loves the kids. Since we've gotten her we dont have a problem with the neighbor looking into the windows anymore. If we go out we have to make sure that the windows are closed and the blind are open if we can't take her with us. If we dont the blind well be broken and she well be standing on the porch when we get home. It was a learning curb the first time for us lol. Now I just have to figure out what she's having the allergic reaction to. Right now we have her on Iams so I'm not sure if it's the food or not. Time to figure it out tho. But we love her and she's mine. lol

We had a visit plus i'm venting a little...

So as a few of you know we had a visit from CPS (child protective Services) yesterday. The claim that was made was that: "The baby sitter leaves Andrew home alone." Ernie and I both looked at the caseworker like she was crazy. The case worker also informed us that she didn't even know that we had Elizabeth until Andrew told her about her. Pretty fucked up don't you think? Of course we went out to tell the case worker that Andrew nor Elizabeth is ever left home alone. That the babysitter is their grandmother and their step grandfather. Ernie's mom stays home with Elizabeth while his step father gets Andrew from the bus which he drive the truck down to pick him up so no ones in the drive way.

The case worker looked things over. Looked in the frig, told us more then enough food thats good. Looked at the kids bedrooms She seemed pleased with them as well. Then checked the other things she had to look for that we have power, gas and water, asked the question that had to be answered. In not so many words she told us that she has 30days to close the case but sees no reason to keep it open.

Yes we already know who made this bullshit call. All it shows is that she has to much time on her hands and she's childish. But on the other hand I can go around saying that my house was approved by the state as safe for children. How many people can say that uh?

 At the same time we're sure that this is just the beginning with the neighbor. Since any time she comes outside she looks in whatever window have the shades pulled back. Yesterday i gave her something to look at when i flipped her off and told her to "take a picture it would last longer." She stated to laugh and said "I got you good so fuck you."  I just think it's funny cause whatever she thinks she did she just made herself look stupid. Ernie and I take very good care of our children and our animals for that matter.

Unlike her we don't just take off and leave our kids at home. We take proper care of our animals which means letting them out more then maybe once or twice a day. We both actually drive and have vehicles so we can be responsible parents and make sure our kids get to places they need to go. It's more important to us that our kids are taken care of and a roof over their heads then me getting my nails and hair done.

I'll be so glad when we can just fucking move. It sucks cause i like the house but at the same time it is to small for us. we really do need a 3 bedroom.

Its been a while...

So its been about two months since i even bother to talk about things on my mind or even whats going on. Well... a lot happen in the last two months.

Ernie and I have been working on a lot of things and have made a lot of progress. We're no longer talking / even thinking about getting devoiced. Saturday morning we we're cuddling he got up after telling me not to move he came back out cuddled back into me and told me that he thinks I should be wearing this again and he put my wedding ring back on my finger. It feels good to have it back on not to mention to hear him say "I love you" and mean it. It also feels good to see his wedding band on his finger.

Work's kinda sucked I hate working for a temp place sometimes. Worked almost 3 weeks at this one place then of course the job was done. Whatever you know... Then of course they call me for a job today but theres no way i could do it 7 days a week midnights starting at 11 which is where it wouldn't work since the time Ernie gets home form work sometimes. Which it sucks cause I would have had overtime (would have loved it) but the 7 days a week would have killed me with the kids.

Andrew's test for ADAH came back negative. His teacher is still giving him a hard time i find it hard to believe he's being as difficult as she says he is. Since anyone that has ever watched Andrew always tells us how good he is. So him being bad every day someone has to be pushing him. Or his teacher needs to teach older kids.

Elizabeth has been really clingy lately. It makes it hard to do anything when she wants to hold on all the time. I notice she does it when Ernie or I work. I know she just misses us. We'll enjoy the cuddling while it last cause one day it wont be there. Potty training is going no where right now, other then sometimes (normally when we're about to go get Andrew off the bus) she'll sit on the potty but forgets about her diaper being on. I'll give her credit on it tho it's a step in the right direction.

Monday opened my eyes....Now I just have to stop the crying

Sunday night Ernie came home in a bad mood. Bad day at work a lot going on. I had plans to go out drinking but I asked him if he wanted me to stay home. He told me to go out anyway so i did. He ended up sending me a text but it didn't say anything about him wanting me to come home. I would have figured something out if he wanted me to come home.  I got home got Andrew on the bus then everything changed after that.

I knew Ernie was in a bad mood I just didn't know how bad the mood actually was. He finally broke. We go into it with the arguing. What I think finally broke the the straw on the camels back was when i told him that since he said he wanted a divorce that I have not going off during sex. Things were different there was nothing there anymore. Next thing i knew his computer screen went into the window. Breaking the window. Then he was in the kitchen with a break away knife to his wrist. he told me "I'll make it easy and end everything now"  I picked up the phone and called 911. He asked what i was doing I told him he needed help and I was going to get him the help he needed. He ended up putting the knife down and went right over to the futon and sat down and didn't move.  The cops arrived I explained everything to them that happen. They checked him over. The one cop pulled me aside and I told him that Ernie was going to say whatever they wanted to hear to get them to just go away. That he doesn't like to talk. The cops ended up putting cuffs on him and taking him to the hospital.

Ernie's mom showed up and I knew as soon as she got there I should have just go in the truck and went to the hospital. but I started getting drilled about what happen.Then she started making phone calls and the next thing i knew I had a house full of people. I didn't want a house full of people. She kept tell everyone we'll just all drive up there. I paced the floor I felt that I was being trapped in my own house. I was being watched like a hawk the whole time.  I broke down when Ernie's dad came in and I talked to him. I pulled myself back together. I called the hospital to see if i could get any information at all. I went into the kitchen to get a drink of water and his mom looked at me and said "Don't you think you could make some coffee or something?" What I wanted to do and what i did were to different things. I wanted to tell her to make her own fucking coffee. But instead  I just  started dumping the coffee together. After that I grabbed my keys looking out the door checking my phone looking around at everyone.

Then I got a text message from Ernie. The door flew open and I got in the car and went up to the hospital. I was almost out of the park when he called to make sure i got the text. I was almost to the hoptial when I talke dto his dad He asked me what the fuck was going on then he told me to stay at  the hosptial with ernie till they got there. I picked ernie up then we headed back to the house. I warned ernie that there was a house full of people ernie wasn't happy about it.   

As soon as we got home they pulled ernie away from me I was pretty much kept trapped in the kitchen, while they had him outside talking. I made him something to eat since i knew he needed something. I tried to give it to him but he wasn't ready so i took it back in the kitchen then bam I was blocked in the kitchen again I managed to get thru to stand by the door but once again I was being watched like I did something. All I wanted to do was talk to him just him and I. No one would let us talk. He finally got to eat his snadwhich then he went back to the bedroom to get changed and I had to ask his mom to move so i could get out of the kitchen. Which was smart on her part cause i was at the end of my rope and I was about to clock her one.

I started walking down the hallway when he got out and I just asked him if I could talk to him just for a few minutes. He grab and hand and we went into the bedroom.I don't think I really explained to him how much he scared me and thats why I called. He understands I know he does. He hugged me I haven't felt what I felt when he hugged me in a long time. He has been staying close to me since that all happend I can understand why. I told him I'm here for him if he needs me I'm here for him to talk to. Which he is talking to me about a lot or at least I believe he is.

I would be lying if I didn't say theres still a big part of me that wishes he would change his mind about getting divoriced. I'm really tring to be ok with the whole thing its extra hard right now because of everything that just happend. The long and short of it I have been going to easy on myself and that was proven today. So I'm going to just start having to be harder on myself.  I'm still going to be there for ernie when he needs to talk. Just other things are going to change and maybe its not going to be a good thing but it can't be any worse then how things are right now. I just know that I'm really going to find out who's really there for me and who really cares.  And if you see me shaking dont pay any mind to it its just my body dealing with whats going on.

I'm sick of people saying they're not going to do something because of my feelings. If thats the case I'll shut my feelings off and then they wont have to worry about if somethings bothering me or not. Stop worring about me. I can pretend that I'm doing fine and nothing wrong. Don't believe me watch...

I Went Out Last Night

So I was really debating on if i should write or not today. I guess you can figure out which one won... But anyways.

So last night I decided last minute to go to the bar with a friend. (I'm not naming names but yes a guy friend.) I guess this guy Doesn't understand the meaning of "I'm not looking for a relationship just people to hang out with." I say that only because of what happen at the bar. So what happen you ask? I know your asking just because  why wouldn't you want to know right? lol Okay.. here's what happen....

When we got to the bar we decided to sit up by the bar not point in sitting at a table since it was just the two of us plus really it wasn't a date just two people hanging out. So my guy friend orders us both a shot of Jager we both took our shots then he ordered is beer and I got my jack and coke. To my left (sitting right next to me) was a guy and his buddy just drinking and having a good time. He seen my glass was almost empty and told the bar tender to get my another Captain and coke  (I think that he thought that's what i was drinking lol ) I did look a little confused when the bar tender brought is over and he just nodded his head to my left side. Of course i turned and thanked him. The guy that came with me seemed to be getting a little pissed.

Well that new Rhianna S&M song came on. I over heard the guy to my left asking what the hell the song was about so of course i kinda butted in and started to explain that the whole song was about the kinky sex. About how she likes to be tied up and controlled type thing. The guys buddy leaned over (this guys was trashed like mad) looked at my friend and asked "So does she get into that type of thing?" Of course both guys were looking at me waiting for the answer I about fell out of my chair laughing. Looked at them and said "If i was he would be the wrong person to be asking." My friend seemed even more pissed but like i told him from the beginning we're just friends. I guess I must have sparked the guys interest. Since he asked what do you drink I told him i just can't do beer cause i just got my tongue Perice. Next thing i knew I had drink after drink coming. I have no idea How i didn't end up hammered and calling for a ride with all the Jack and cokes, captain and cokes and shots i was doing. I'm guilty of a body shot or two also I well admit it.

 Everyone kept asking me if i was ok so i would get up walk a straight line sit back down and get another drink. The bar tender asked me how in the hell i was holding so well I guess i was just lucky? The drinks were far from weak. Then when i was getting ready to leave I was asked if I would be back lol I told them I would think about it. The one guy that was on my left side told me that if he wasn't at the goat he's normally at Wrangler's. (I'm thinking that was a hint?) LOL. We stopped at a few other bars but they were pretty lame so my friend decided he needed to call it a night he had to work at 7. (Flipping light weight) So I dropped him off and he was hammered passing out in the truck and his house was a stones throw from the bar. Plus he had a lot less to drink then me he had 1shot and like 4 beers. I did have a blast the only downer was there wasn't a dance floor. (maybe next time?) I really figured I would have been waking up with a hang over and I didn't which still amazes me but I'm not complaining one bit. Ernie was happy I had a good time which made me feel good. :)

One thing did happen I know Ernie wasn't happy about it and I feel so bad about it. I know he knows how bad I feel (I know he could tell by the look on my face) I'm still beating myself up for it. I know he told me it was ok but its going to be a while before i forgive myself for that one.

So the guy i went with started giving me crap today about the guys buying me drinks at the bar. I told him I wasn't in a relationship with him so i don't see what the problem was. He told me that he stopped looking for someone to date cause he figured he was dating me. I told him that I wasn't looking for a relationship and even if i was he wasn't the type that I would even consider dating. That yes he's nice but not my type for a relationship. I know harsh right but i told him from the beginning and if he couldn't understand it then I was going to make sure he understood it now. I hate to be the mean person like that but sometimes you have to be. The nice thing is he finally got the dam point. Really tho I don't think I'll be hanging out with him anymore. Granted if he tried anything it wouldn't take shit for me to put him in his place, but the point is I dont' need that shit.

WAKE UP!! It was just a dream! I wished it wasn't tho....

I dreamed last night, Its been a while but i did. Ernie and I were in the house watching the kids play. He had his arms wrapped around me giving me soft kisses like everything was perfect in the world nothing was wrong. The dream when on to us holding hands watching the kids go to home coming prom, learning about love and then losing it, graduate high school, then to them finding the one they can't live without and getting married and finally them starting families of there own. I seen us old together making breakfast or dinner for the kids when they came to visit.

Then I woke up! I didn't want to wake up it was to perfect it was what I had and one point and not I have to stand back and watch it walk away. I'm not saying those things wont happen they just won't happen that way. We're both going to be there for the kids just in different ways. We'll go our different ways in stead of going together.

I noticed things when i woke up. Just like in my dream he was holding me and he was kissing me. Was he fully awake i don't think he was. I'll never know, I'm not about to ask either. I'm just going to enjoy the moment i had. which if i wouldn't had moved tyring to adjust would have lasted longer. It didn't help that our mattress has been losing air. Stupid thing!

This is hard...

The last few weeks have been very painful . Really down right unbearable for me. Something i always thought would last forever is ending and i don't want to let go. But in the same breath its not fair to hold on to something if its unhappy. Theres a lot to work thru. The last thing i ever wanted to do was get divorced. We're still going to be friends we can talk  to each other without fighting which is a good thing. Andrew's handling it okay i guess. I made a call to the school so he's talking to someone once a week. We have been fighting with him a little bit with school, but really i expected a lot worse. I say this  now but watch things change and the acting out gets worse I'm waiting for that day really. Elizabeth is still young enough i hoping it wont be that hard of a change for her.  Then to top it all off the place that i was working at let me go dam temp jobs but what can i do but keep looking. *SIGH* I'm taking advantage of the time i have off tho and I'm cleaning out the house garbage guys going to hate me.

My first week!

Monday was my first day at Applied Power. I have to say really didn't know what to expect when i started. But I wasn't expecting it to be as easy as it is. There is no stress at all its really a cake walk job. I kid you not I get to listen to my Mp3 player all day. I forgot what it was like to have a job we're you get 2 breaks and a lunch. I don't have to check in with someone every time i need to use the rest room go on break or lunch. I just get up and go. My 3rd day on the job the company took everyone out to red robin for lunch. Which i guess that they do that twice a year or something like that. So that was pretty cool. Their also telling us that February they want to put us on 10 hr days if we can do it and maybe a Saturday if it we can swing it. but if we can't they understand. Of course I'm going to take any overtime i can. I think i did pretty good my first week,  I learned how to glue battery packs together (really simple), use the shrink oven (the hardest part is getting the shrink on the battery just right), then yesterday I started welding the batteries together. I was a little nervous at first but I managed not to blow up or set on fire a battery pack yet which i guess that normally doesn't happen with a first timer. Made me smile to hear that I'm one of the lucky ones :) Can't wait for week 2 :)

Big Changes!!

Despite all the crap I've been thru the last few days today really brighton things up for me. I had an interview for this company called Applied Power. They are a family owned company that started back in 1970. The company assembles batteries for many uses from hospital machines to rc toy cars. I really like the fact that i can listen to my mp3 player all day also. My hours are also Monday thru Friday 7a.m. to 3:30p.m. Saturdays are over time talk about sweet!!! which is perfect with Ernie's hours. I felt very positive about the interview after it was over. A few short hours later I received a call telling me that they would like for me to start on Monday. SSSSSSWWWWWWEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTNNNNEEEESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was really the best day I've had in a while. I got a new job (that pays better) I got to put my 2 week notice into the shit hole I was working at. (Yes Wendy's is a shit hole to work for but when you need money coming in it works).Which I was really hoping I could do. I have no respect to work for that place. How can you have respect for a place that when your confront a manger for talking crap and saying that your a horrible empolyee they act like they have no idea what your talking about? Fuck that!!! I caught her in a lie and for that i'm peacing out. I bust my ass and get treating like shit I don't need that. She didn't even have the respect for me to tell me the truth. But still I put in my 2 weeks now if I finish those 2 weeks out thats another story....

Tomorrow I'm suppose to be working a 9 hour shift 11am to 8pm but I'm not really feelin it hell i'm not feeling the hours I have next week their either. (since i'm starting on monday working 2 jobs why should i?) If she thinks I'm a bad empoylee I can be a bad empoylee. maybe I just don't want to show up I mean she is the one that took me of all except for one day when I brought it to her attention that she had me working on a day I asked for off. the only reason I'm even on for a 9 hour day tomorrow is because someone else quit. So thats the only reason i have to come in anyway, if it wasn't for that I would have only had one day. I just asked ernie he agrees with me so its settled i made up my mind. I'm not going in and I don't feel bad about it at all. Fuck that place they can deal. Well i feel better I have to get the kids ready for bed later everyone!!!

Where should I start??

The last few days have been almost more then i can take. Andrew's birthday party was canceled of course there was a lot of thats not right from my mom. Which while she might not think that its right. It doesn't matter since andrew is mine and ernie son and if we feel we should cancel his birthday party because he's misbehaving that is our choice and our right as parents. Well with all that said I recieved a call from my mother on andrew's birthday what she said to me broke my heart in two. "This is the last time you'll hear from me i'm walking away from you and the kids." I asked her "So your saying you want nothing to do with me or your grandkids?" "Angela I can't take this anymore its abuse what your doing." "Thats really nice mom you rturning your back on your daughter and your grandkids." Then i got the "I have to get back to work." I just told her "Bye" and hung the phone up then went and balled my eyes out. Its great to know that your own mother well disown you and your kids over canceling a birthday party.I'm really hurt over the whole thing but the only way i can answer it is fine if she wants to be that way I don't want her around my kids. Just because she doesn't agree with the way ernie and i are raising our kids doesn't mean you disown your family.